All these things that I've done
Why do I know exactly what to do, and yet I never do that? Never ever. I have all these great plans for how I'm going to make up with lost friends, do things that after all will result in my well-being. Why do I ignore them? That's just stupid. So very stupid.
I kind of wish I could hurt myself. I would if I had my own place, but I don't. Maybe for the better. I'm not really afraid for pain, if I'm the one hurting myself. It's the lack of control that can scare me. The pain it self is most of the time quite bearable.
Indeed.
My bestest of best friends is in town today, (Probably not yet thought) but I still miss her. I wish I had more than one person with whom I could be myself. It is ofcourse possible for me to be myself with everyone, but it never goes well. I mean who really wants to hang out with a cynical, cold, closed up, angry, immature bitch? Aspecially when I can turn myself into a positive, cute, self loving, mature friend. That's right, not a soul.
Well, that's all I guess. No one reads this anyway so who cares? Not me
I kind of wish I could hurt myself. I would if I had my own place, but I don't. Maybe for the better. I'm not really afraid for pain, if I'm the one hurting myself. It's the lack of control that can scare me. The pain it self is most of the time quite bearable.
Indeed.
My bestest of best friends is in town today, (Probably not yet thought) but I still miss her. I wish I had more than one person with whom I could be myself. It is ofcourse possible for me to be myself with everyone, but it never goes well. I mean who really wants to hang out with a cynical, cold, closed up, angry, immature bitch? Aspecially when I can turn myself into a positive, cute, self loving, mature friend. That's right, not a soul.
Well, that's all I guess. No one reads this anyway so who cares? Not me
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Postat av: Arvid
I care.
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